I´ve never felt more empowered, let me tell you how this happened:
I was discussing with my family about the reasons of why I had desisted to go to an end-of-the-year trip to Istanbul and Dubai (personal reasons nothing to do with the beauty of these cities which I will visit but in another opportunity) and why I should consider other possible destinations instead. I came with the same strong opinions from my family: why do I waste money on trips instead of saving to buy a house, a car, or anything? And I my answer was more or less like this one:
“Because I don´t want to get a loan to buy something that is going to torment me for years until I pay my debt. I don´t want to live like that, I want to be able to enjoy life as if I was going to die tomorrow. I don´t have personal obligations yet, children or other dependents and I want to be able to take advantage of that while I can.”
It was more or less like that, and it is not the first time I use a similar answer to the members of my family but to friends as well. It seems that I´m surrounded by what I call: “negative traveling souls” and I really hate that!
Then we discussed with my family about my way of thinking, etc., etc. and I won´t tell you the details but let’s say that my way of thinking is miles different from them.
But I felt empowered, because I love the way I am, and I feel so proud that I´m able to think like I do, even if I mistaken, because it just feels right in my heart. And at the end, it is all about being content with your heart, right? Would I be happy being a slave of my work knowing that I have to work for years in order to pay a mortgage? No, definitely no.
I don’t want to think that much in any financial difficulties that could come when I´m old (as my mother points out), because maybe I won´t get that far!!! And I know many of you will say “how irresponsible way of thinking”. But I think that I´m actually very realistic, I know life is a gift meant to be lived as it were the last you were going to receive, and that people is realistic!
I don´t dream of living forever, I don´t dream of saving until one day I become wealthy and then can travel the world. Even if you become wealthy with your savings in years from now, who guarantees that you´re going to be physical able to travel?.
I feel more real than ever, doing what I like, living how I want. How many people can say that? I feel empowered by accepting and being who I am…. Damn I feel so good!
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Writing is a gift – enjoy that it has been given to you.
Thank you for your kind words! comments like yours definitely encourage me to pursue my goals!
I have CFS – and can’t walk – and I encourage you to do every bit of traveling you possibly can before you can’t. It’s your money – you can always live less expensively. If you have enough to live on and travel, go.
There’s a hostel off the Zocalo in Mexico City where people sometimes stay for months doing some of the jobs – and staying for free. I’m sure there are arrangements like that in many places.
If you’re young and healthy and interested – like you sound you are – enjoy. We have a saying in Spanish: ‘Lo bailado nadie te lo quita.’ It means, ‘that which you have already danced, no one can take away from you.’ I’m glad I’ve done the things I could – even if limited – and will continue to do so (having no energy does make it a problem).
I just got new carbon fiber thingies which help me walk better, and I intend to work up to at least walking again, so we can do some.
You have the attitude and the time – go – and have a margarita for me somewhere.
Hi, thanks so much for the advice! I love traveling and my ideal life would be to travel the world while writing. But I don´t take life for granted, so I don´t wait for that ideal future, and try to do as much travel as possible. Luckily, I have traveled a lot but I still so much to travel…
I´m definetely writing down Mexico as a future destination. You are right! thanks a lot and thanks for liking my post!